God hasn’t forgotten you!

Updated: Apr 26, 2018

Aisha Brown

I’ve been doing some reflecting since it’s that time of year.

I’ve started recounting some of my steps and thinking about how I made it this far. One of the things that stood out was when I really believed God had forgotten about me. See, I’ve been married for twelve years now. During the process of our marriage, we’ve experienced multiple failed pregnancies. I will just put it out there. We’ve had two stillborn boys, three miscarriages, and three failed adoption attempts. At one point in my life, all I saw was failure, and I began to believe that I was a failure. There were people who said things to trick me into believing I was a failure. My mind also tricked me into believing that all I would ever be was a failure. I was certain, even after being saved for many years, that God was mad at me. My thoughts were that he had pushed me to the side and said I’m finished with her. I honestly tried to figure out what I had done to make a loving God not want to have anything to do with me.